How Meditation Changed My Life
For years I was what people would describe as a ‘drama queen’. Everything that went wrong was a huge drama and in full drama queen style I would fling myself around with hilarious gestures making it known that whatever had just happened to me was the most dramatic thing to happen since the dawn of time. I had no shame!
Thing is, when you have a relatively simple life, this is fine. However, when genuinely difficult circumstances land on your door step, being a drama queen is THE worst trait you can have. You pretty much self destruct. Looking back it is blindingly obvious to me that my reactions were fuelled by anxiety and a lack of control, nevertheless, I needed to calm my shit down, quickly.
There are a few people I know who I believe came into my life for a very good reason. You know the kind. You feel like you’ve known them for years even though you haven’t? It’s like you knew each other in a past life? Well, that is exactly what happened when I met my friend and spiritual guider, Sue.
I met Sue at a time when I was struggling to come to terms with two unpredictable circumstances that turned my world upside down. I was so lost and didn’t know where to turn. I looked in the mirror and didn’t recognise the girl looking back. When I asked her what she did, she said, ‘I can’t prescribe one thing for all, it all depends on what you need darling’. I had exhausted every possible way to solve this myself so I decided to see her. Hands down the best thing that happened was the moment she opened the door. She flung her arms round me in a heartfelt embrace and said how wonderful it was to see me. Instantly, I felt this was not her job, but her purpose on earth, and I felt relaxed from then on.
Sue worked through my problems with me, she listened intently and worked on balancing my energy every time I saw her. She offered many practical ideas that helped me to compartmentalise my struggles and allowed me to accept them. What I loved the most about her, was that she helped me to accept myself for who I was, and rather than changing me, she opened me up…and that was everything to me.
Over the months we saw each other we soon developed a great friendship, meaning chocolate croissants and cups of tea became a regular occurrence. I would chat to her for hours about her travels and stories surrounding meditation, and so it goes without saying, I jumped at the chance to learn meditation with her.
Sue’s daughter Kate is also a well practiced Spiritual Guider and so she was also part of the learning process. Me and a few of my dearest friends took part in an all day workshop learning the foundations of meditation. WOW! It was so much more than I ever realised.
As Kate began running through the different ways you can meditate, we were all engrossed. She talked for over and hour and kept asking if we wanted to move on, but we were hooked. The thing I loved the most is how important it is to meditate in the way that’s right for you. Whether you sit on a chair or on the floor, whether your space is filled with bits and pieces or just a candle, it belongs to you and is your time. We did a guided session for around 15-20 minutes and I have never felt so calm and content in all my life. The feeling was like nothing I’ve ever experienced. After a 6 hour day, I was totally addicted to the idea meditation could really heal me.
What a lot of misguiding advice out there fails to tell you, is that meditation is not having no thoughts. It is impossible to have no thoughts. It is a case of hearing your thoughts, but in that moment being less attached to them and to inhale and exhale focusing on the rhythm of your breath and the field of energy around you. (It is of course a little more than that, but in a nutshell, stay away from the internet!).
I continued to meditate after our workshop, and now not only meditate but apply meditation to my everyday life. I am calmer, more grateful and have the insight to know who I am, what I am made of and what to do when I am pushed.
I highly recommend seeking professional advice for meditation. Stay away from apps, internet advice and youtube videos. You can however practise some mindful breathing and create a small space at home to enjoy your time. A space would normally include the 4 elements (wind, fire, earth and water). I have candles, a brass bowl, a glass of water and a hematite bracelet. You can make it what you wish and develop and evolve your space to what suits your mood. Give it a go. I would love to see your space.
I read a quote once that said
‘There is a battle of two wolves inside us. One is evil. It is anger, jealousy, greed, resentment, lies, inferiority and ego. The other is good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, humility, kindness, empathy and truth. The wolf that wins? The one you feed’
You have to decide what type of person you want to be, and work to develop her. The world really is your oyster so don’t spend your life struggling and hating your journey. Learn, grow and focus on what is right.
Love you Sue!